Thursday, February 11, 2021

Carlos - Catholic to Evangelical Pastor




I have been an evangelical pastor for more than 20 years and now I serve on the council of an evangelical church as well as being an editor of the magazine “En la Calle Recta”.


The word evangelical was for me, from childhood, a heretical word the same as the word Protestant.


I was born in 1955, in a home with a Roman Catholic tradition like most Spaniards. My parents took me to be baptized shortly after I was born. When I was eight years old, I received my first communion, blindly and happily trusting that God was enclosed in that little consecrated wafer that he was bringing to my mouth. I watched with great fear of not biting God, but simply waiting to swallow that bread without suffocating.


The joy of having God "inside" of me was soon forgotten and I dedicated myself to knowing everything that the world offers to an adolescent. Until he was 16 years old, he went to mass every day, being one of the few students at the Salesian school who still attended this celebration. From then on, all my classmates and I stopped going to church because it gave us absolutely nothing.


I remember on one occasion shortly after leaving school visiting a Roman Catholic temple to resume Christian life and fulfill all the commandments, but the good intention lasted 24 hours. I told myself that I was a good person, that God was my “compadre” and that therefore he understood that I did not fulfill all the requirements of the commandments.


I continued to be a rogue until the day I got married. That day I set foot in a church again. But only that day. My life and that of my wife were doomed to the most resounding marital failure until one day an “evangelical” challenged me to read the Bible. How is it that as a Catholic I had not read the entire Bible, but only some sacred stories and some of the gospels? Then I discovered that there were books like Proverbs and Ecclesiastes full of rich wisdom for everyone, or epistles like James' that says things so clearly that the dumbest can understand them.


It was then, when at the age of 27, reading the Bible by myself in a hotel, God spoke to me powerfully through his Word. I was reading Psalm 50 when a few verses touched my heart deeply.


But to the bad one God said:


What do you have to talk about my laws,

And what to take my pact in your mouth?

For you hate correction

And you throw my words behind you.

If you saw the thief, you ran with him,

And with adulterers it was your part.

Your mouth got in bad,

And your tongue made up deception.

You sat down and spoke against your brother;

You infamy your mother's son.

These things you did, and I have kept silent;

You thought that I would really be like you;

But I will rebuke you, and put them in front of your eyes.


God made a portrait of my life with those words. I was that bad guy you're talking about. And he had been silent until then. He chided me in such a way that I fell to my knees on the hotel floor, crying for hours. God could have destroyed me and He hadn't. He had mercy on me. From that moment I knew that it belonged to him. That he loved me out of sheer grace. And I understood the perfect value of all the work of salvation in Christ on my behalf.


[Source: https://www.enlacallerecta.es/getuigenissen/testimonios-carlos]

Sunday, February 7, 2021

A. J. Krause - From Darkness to Light

July 13, 2015


Few people have ever loved or respected the Catholic Church more than me.  As we lived just a stone’s throw from St. Dominic’s Church and school, my sister and I were raised in the church.  Members of the Krause family, as far back as granddad could remember, were all good Catholics.  We had a proud tradition to follow, and the baton had been handed to me.  In no way would I let our tradition down.  What confidence I had in this awesome religion!  Why, I questioned, was everyone who claimed to be Christian not a Roman Catholic?  This was my heart-felt belief.  The following is my personal testimony of salvation.  


Born Catholic, Die Catholic


My parents thought it very important that my sister and I receive a good Catholic education instead of one from a public or private school.  Therefore, I spent my grammar, middle, and high school years being educated by nuns and priests.  I was well indoctrinated into the rules and doctrines of Catholicism.  I was baptized as an infant, confirmed as a young boy, and received my first Holy Communion at my school and church.  I started confessing my sins to priests at an early age.  I had received four of the seven sacred sacraments by the age of twelve, and I felt my spiritual quest was headed in the right direction.  After all, I was following one of the most organized religions in the world.  My Catholic school regularly challenged us to consider the possibility of becoming a priest or nun.  Thoughts of dedicating my life to God in this way danced in my soul.  What greater career path could I travel?  So, I talked like someone who was interested in the path of serving God.  Because of my obvious devotion and love for the Catholic Church, the nuns and priests gave me special attention, especially because of my vocal desire to become a Catholic priest.  I was taught that the priesthood is the highest calling for a man.  I set out in a devoted path, desiring to do all that I thought pleased the Lord.


Devoted Catholics go to Mass as often as they can, and further training taught me that going to Mass everyday would grant me special grace and fewer days in Purgatory (a Catholic doctrine meaning a temporary place after death where the body burns until purged of all smaller sins).  I had zeal of God, but the remark made by the Apostle Paul concerning the devout Jews also applied to me, “For I bear them record that they have a zeal of God, but not according to knowledge.  For they being ignorant of God’s righteousness, and going about to establish their own righteousness, have not submitted themselves unto the righteousness of God.”  I was ignorant of God’s righteousness.  I believed that Catholicism was “the way” for righteousness, but the Scripture insists, “For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to every one that believeth.”  Believing on Christ for righteousness is the key.  Without confidence in God, in His fidelity, His truth, His wisdom, and His promises, you have no security, as the Scripture maintains, “…without faith it is impossible to please him….” However, my faith and confidence were in my beloved religion which “I thought” to be God’s righteousness.


My Loyalty to the Mass


An absolute requirement of all good Catholics is the participation in the sacrifice of the Mass.  Central to the faith of all Catholics is the Eucharist, i.e., a re-enactment of the Last Supper in the sacrifice of the Mass.  In my grammar school years, weekday Mass started at 7a.m.  My sister and I considered it a privilege to live so close to the church and to have the opportunity of making Mass and Holy Communion every day.  We also ate a special breakfast at the school, because at that time it was a mortal sin (an offense that would send a person to hell) to receive communion if you had eaten any food after midnight.  Later, this particular mortal sin was changed to eating no food for the three hours before receiving communion.  We liked the special attention we received from the schoolteachers and our classmates when we ate breakfast at our desk during class.  I was committed to attending Mass every school day.  I rose an hour earlier than my classmates.  This was one of the only ways I thought I could please the Lord.  If I had studied the Scriptures, the Word of God would have caused me to question my daily practice.  Concerning Christ’s sacrifice and the continuing of it, the Scripture says, “By the which will we are sanctified through the offering of the body of Jesus Christ once for all.  And every priest standeth daily ministering and offering oftentimes the same sacrifices, which can never take away sins: But this man, after he had offered one sacrifice for sins for ever, sat down on the right hand of God.”


This section of Scripture can certainly be applied in reference to the daily Mass.  The practice of the Mass, according to the Bible, should never take place; Christ’s death on the cross for our sins was a one-time event, not to be ministered repeatedly.  However, I, like most Catholics, was knowledgeable of my religion but ignorant of the Bible, and so I followed our tradition.


As a Catholic, I firmly believed what the Church taught: that the Eucharist (the bread and wine) was the actual body and blood of our Lord Jesus Christ.  The Catholic Church teaches that the host is actually Christ’s body and the wine is His real blood.  They called this metamorphosis “transubstantiation.”  The Scripture teaches,  “…I will even set my face against that soul that eateth blood, and will cut him off from among his people…Therefore I said unto the children of Israel, no soul of you shall eat blood…” Regarding His Last Supper, it is important to read Christ’s own words.  His command in the institution of the Last Supper did not initiate a continual sacrifice but declared the institution of a remembrance of His finished work.  His words declared, “…  ‘This cup is the New Testament in my blood: this do ye, as oft as ye drink it, in remembrance of me.’  For as often as ye eat this bread, and drink this cup, ye do shew the Lord’s death till he come.”  The purpose is clearly given: to proclaim and publish His death.  It is a remembrance of what Christ has done and suffered.  However, in this remembrance, true believers are to declare His resurrection to be their life and the cause of their comfort and hope.  “Who by him do believe in God, that raised him up from the dead, and gave him glory; that your faith and hope might be in God.”


After I received my first Holy Communion, I made a vow to God to never miss Mass on Sunday or any holy day of obligation.  Catholic doctrine clearly states that missing Mass without good reason is a damnable sin.  I went a step further, no matter how sick I was, or where I traveled, nothing would prevent me from missing Mass.  Some Sundays, while running very high fever, I would crawl out of bed so I would not miss Mass.  I believed this added to my good works, which were necessary for eternal life.  I was the talk of the school making such sacrifices as a young boy.  “What a great priest he could be for the Church,” people whispered.  Local Jesuit priests courted me in my high school years giving me special attention.  They enticed me with their private wine cellars in the basement of their rectory and allowed me to play with their champion bird dogs.  They even took me bird hunting on weekends. They explained to me how priests received salaries, retirement programs, and ample vacations.  This looked like a good life to a high schooler considering a career.  Jesus warned the top religious leaders of His day, “Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites!  for ye compass sea and land to make one proselyte, and when he is made, ye make him twofold more the child of hell than yourselves.”  In my early years, I entertained the real possibility of entering the priesthood when I became old enough.


Our Home and Holy Water


As a child, along with my parent’s blessings, I gladly took the responsibility of keeping fresh holy water throughout our home.  Attached to our bedroom light switches was a cradle that held holy water.  It was common practice to dip our hand in this water as we turned on the light switch and by making the sign of the cross.  This was a common practice in our home.  As head altar boy at my parish, I had a good opportunity to obtain holy water.  Looking back, this seems like a strange practice, but at the time we were taught to put great confidence in this as protection for our home.  There is no such substance as holy water in the pages of the Bible.  The traditions of Catholicism bring into the worship of God “holy water,” oil and salt, charcoal and incense, and many other physical objects that dishonor the true worship of God.  


Mary, St. Christopher, and Medals 


The Rosary was another very special part of my life.  The “Blessed Virgin Mary” dominated my prayer life.  My prayers to Mary were continuous, day-by-day and year-by-year.  The Rosary alone has fifty-three exaltations to Mary, and only eight to God.  A central truth taught in the Bible is, “For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus.”  The only way to God is through Jesus Christ, not Mary.  However, our home had several statues of Mary that we used as “aids to worship.”  I always wore my special St. Christopher medal.  It had been purchased at the national Cathedral of the Immaculate Conception in Washington, D.C., and my favorite parish priest blessed it.  I strongly believed it had supernatural powers until the pope admitted that there was no historical evidence that St. Christopher ever lived.  I continued to wear it, because it also had on the reverse side an image of Mary.  She, I reasoned, would protect me.  I was ignorantly committing a terrible sin because of my lack of knowledge of the Second Commandment.  “Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth: Thou shalt not bow down thyself to them, nor serve them: for I the LORD thy God am a jealous God….” I continued to break God’s Second Commandment every day.  Ignorance is no excuse in man’s courtroom or in God’s judgment.  I am attempting to tell you the truth of God’s law, not the “commandments of men.”  This is one of God’s blessed Commandments.  Do not take my word for it, read it for yourself, even in a Catholic Bible.


 


Steadfastly a Catholic 


While many of my close Catholic friends were questioning their faith concerning the history of the Church and its doctrine, I remained steadfast.  Steadfast into my adult years, who was I to doubt or second guess the teaching of the “Mother Church?”  However, the history, tradition, and loyalty of the “Saints” humbled me.  Even though I studied world history, the Crusades, and the Inquisition (the torturing of Bible believers who spoke against the Roman Catholic Church—many being tortured and burned at the stake), I still would not speak against my Church.


    In my world, a priest’s word was held in high esteem, especially his opinions and understanding of spiritual matters.  I, as all good Catholics, was taught to trust the “priest” to interpret scripture and the Roman Catholic Church’s doctrines.  However, the Scripture teaches, “…in vain do they worship me, teaching for doctrines the commandments of men.  For laying aside the commandment of God, ye hold the tradition of men…Making the word of God of none effect through your tradition….” Mankind loves tradition, and ignorantly, superstition.  All ancient religions are steeped in delusions and rituals.  Carefully, I asked the Jesuit priests about the millions tortured, killed, or burned at the stake by my Church.  Their answers were unsettling, but I wrote it off, because my Church admitted she had made errors in the past.  I trusted these men’s word.  Who was I to ponder or doubt the Church?  I believed my Church was started by Christ Himself, Peter being the first pope.  


 


Was Peter the First Pope?


One of the few verses we were taught to memorize in catechism was: “And Simon Peter answered and said, ‘Thou art the Christ, the Son of the living God.’  And Jesus answered and said unto him, ‘Blessed art thou, Simon Barjona: for flesh and blood hath not revealed it unto thee, but my Father which is in heaven.  And I say also unto thee, That thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it.  And I will give unto thee the keys of the kingdom of heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven.’  Then charged he his disciples that they should tell no man that he was Jesus the Christ.”


    We were taught to believe that Peter was authorized to start the Church by Christ Himself.  We were taught to believe that all other Christian churches, religions, and denominations were offshoots of Roman Catholicism.  This gave Catholics a great superiority over other faiths.  No other Christian Church or world religion, in my understanding, could rank with my Church.  What pride I had in my religion.  Catholic teaching states that Peter was the first pope.  (Note: The word pope is non-biblical and is a man-made title).  The Catholic Church teaches that Peter is the rock in Matthew 16.  What does the Bible say about this?  This rock is to be the foundation of our faith; so let Scripture define who it is, Peter or Christ?


    In the passage, we are taught that the disciples had a distinct knowledge of Christ expressed by Peter on their behalf.  The Lord says that this knowledge – that He was “the Christ” and “the Son of the Living God” – was a revelation from His Father in heaven.  It is this revelation, the Lord declared, that he was the Rock, or foundation stone, upon which He would build His Church.  This was the very concluding subject of the Lord’s summons to the disciples, “Then charged he his disciples that they should tell no man that he was Jesus the Christ.”  To hold the view that Peter himself is the Rock is to deliberately pervert the plain sense of the Lord’s own words.  The word “Peter” by definition means pebble, not rock.  The Bible repeatedly calls God “the Rock” of His people.  For example, “And they remembered that God was their rock….” “O come, let us sing unto the LORD…the rock of our salvation.”  “There is none holy as the LORD: for there is none beside thee: neither is there any rock like our God.” “The LORD liveth; and blessed be my rock; and exalted be the God of the rock of my salvation.”  The Apostle Paul proclaimed, “… for they drank of that spiritual Rock that followed them: and that Rock was Christ.”


    Even the Apostle Peter warned of a false “rock of offense,”  “Unto you therefore which believe he is precious: but unto them which be disobedient, the stone which the builders disallowed, the same is made the head of the corner, and a stone of stumbling, and a rock of offence, even to them which stumble at the word, being disobedient: whereunto also they were appointed.”


There is no doubt that the revelation of Jesus Christ, given by the Father, is “the rock” in Matthew 16, not Peter, or any pope.  When faced with the truth, a choice has to be made.  Ignorantly, I chose my religion over the Bible.  I believed that Peter was the first pope and all the infallible teachings of the popes throughout history were equal to the Gospel.  There have been over one thousand official edicts of popes.  If I were to list some of them, you would be in shock with horror.  Ignorantly, I had blind faith in this religious church system.  My faith was not in Christ as the Way, the Truth, and the Life.  My faith was in the Roman Catholic Church as the way, the truth, and the life.


My parents bought both my sister and me a Catholic Bible.  I carried my Bible throughout my high school and college years.  As most Catholics, we had great respect and fear of this “mystery book.”  In my years of Catholic schooling, I cannot remember one time ever being required to read the Bible.  Maybe this is because it raised more questions than answers relating to the Catholic Church.  Instead, we were taught to trust the priest to interpret the Bible for us.  One official catechism declaration that we were required to memorize taught us the Catholic stance as it relates to the Bible and tradition.  It states, “The scriptures and tradition are one in the same but when contradictions arise, tradition is to rule over the Bible.”  The Scriptures teach against this position in many places.  For example, the final commandment of the Bible, in the final book, and in the final chapter is, “…and let him that heareth say, come and let him that is athirst come.  And whosoever will, let him take the water of life freely.  For I testify unto every man that heareth the words of the prophecy of this book, If any man shall add unto these things, God shall add unto him the plagues that are written in this book:  And if any man shall take away from the words of the book of this prophecy, God shall take away his part out of the book of life, and out of the holy city, and from the things which are written in this book.”  God uses men to tell other men the good news—and the bad news—of His Holy Word.  I have a responsibility to warn you of these things as I tell you my story.  


 


My Fellowship with Non-Catholics


My college years took a distinctive career path.  I got very involved in athletics and had an active social life, therefore, my desire to become a priest dwindled; but my love and devotion of the Church stayed strong.  My first association with Bible-believing Christians, or non-Catholics, was when I joined the Fellowship of Christian Athletes and Campus Crusade for Christ at the University of Alabama.  It was strange for me to see people carrying Bibles, quoting scripture, and having devotions around Bible passages.  This was a peculiar lifestyle for someone whose only exposure was the Catholic faith.  I could see a zeal for God at these get-togethers where genuine openhearted prayer abounded.  It is usual for Catholics to recite from a book of prayers rather than pray from an open heart—directly to God.  This new form of worship fascinated me.


I started going regularly to the Christian fellowships but also continued to attend Mass.  I can remember many Bible believing Christians asking me why I was Catholic and I jumped at the chance to defend my faith and exalt my Church.  Although a few people did make me question my faith in my religion, a few words with a priest always comforted and led me back into their fold.  The Church teaches that the priests must interpret Scripture for us.  They were the experts and I was taught to trust their interpretation.  After all, were they not the vicars of Christ?  Many years of schooling and special training convinced me to trust them.  After talking to a priest, his words would reinforce my faith and keep me loyal.  Christian speakers on the campus pricked my heart with Bible-based messages.  My soul longed for what they had; surely, I could search and find that kind of faith and peace in the Church.  Some Scripture verses which impressed me were: “…hath he [Christ] quickened together with him, having forgiven you all trespasses,  “…and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin.”  Another was, “Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ: By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God.” 


How could these verses be true?  I believed it was necessary to confess sins to a Catholic priest before someone could be absolved from sin.  What about a forgotten sin?  Bible-based Christians claimed to have forgiveness of “all” sins.  They professed to be born-again and to already have obtained salvation.  I reflected on the confidence and freedom they seemed to possess.  I had to keep record of my sins for confession.  After one campus meeting, I was bold enough to ask if I could talk with the speaker.  I felt compelled to meet him afterwards in his hotel room.  He questioned me about my salvation and put me in conviction for a short while.  He showed me in the Bible where it says, “For whosoever shall keep the whole law, and yet offend in one point, he is guilty of all.”  I asked, “You mean one small sin is like committing murder or adultery?”  “Sin is sin” was his answer.  The Bible does not teach such a thing as mortal or venial sin.  This is a man-made concept, created by religion.


 


A Challenge from a Christian Girl


I started dating a Christian girl who had love and zeal for the Lord Jesus Christ like none I had ever seen.  She questioned my faith and my salvation.  “When were you saved?” she asked.  “Saved” was a strange word to me; it was not found in any Catholic vocabulary, even though it is used over two hundred times in the Bible.  This girl gave me my first Christian Bible.  She highlighted key verses, and I challenged myself to read.  There is power in God’s Word; I felt the conviction of the Holy Spirit as I read it.  What a testimony this Christian girl was when she stopped dating me because I was not a true believer.  The Bible teaches, “Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness?  and what communion hath light with darkness?”  That passage, later in my life, gloriously guided me to my wife and later to my business partners.  I now understand what it means to be equally yoked together with Christ at the helm.


Most Catholics consider themselves spiritual people, as did I, but now looking back, I was on the outside looking in.  I now understand I was imitating the Christian life.  Catholics tend to believe their faith is a private thing, not to be examined, but the Bible says: “Examine yourselves, whether ye be in the faith; prove your own selves.  Know ye not your own selves, how that Jesus Christ is in you, except ye be reprobates?  But I trust that ye shall know that we are not reprobates.”  Now I realize that in my former faith I was a reprobate.  When have you examined yourself in the light of God’s Word and not man’s religion?  The Holy Spirit will lead you to only one truth.


I often caught myself in a wrestling match with others trying to convince them I was a good Catholic and that all good Catholics were saved.  Bible-based Christians continued to doubt my salvation.  This greatly troubled me, but I still kept faith in my Church and tradition.  Jesus said, “…full well ye reject the commandment of God, that ye may keep your own tradition,” “…Making the word of God of none effect through your tradition.”  Verse 13 has been quoted twice in this testimony for a good reason, for there was where I lived.  


A Christian Business Couple Led Me to the Bible 


My adult years provided me success in private business.  I recruited and trained many talented people who marketed health products throughout the country.  One of my most talented managers was a preacher who had a rare zeal and excitement about life and the Bible.  As I spent time with him, he questioned me about my salvation.  He always seemed to carry a Bible wherever he went.  That was strange and uncomfortable for me.  After a business meeting, I found myself at his home with him and his wife.  Unknowingly, they had been praying for an opportunity to witness to me about my salvation.  Only a few times had someone taken out a Bible and showed me “truth.”  They took me to Scriptures such as: “Brethren, my heart’s desire and prayer to God for Israel is, that they might be saved.”  It was their desire for A. J. Krause to be saved!  I had a zeal but not according to Bible knowledge.  I had looked for righteousness in a religion and not in the Person of Christ Jesus.  “For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to every one that believeth.”  I was under the law and this verse spoke to my heart.  I was under rules and rituals, imposed by a religion, to gain “my” righteousness.  I was keeping the law for “my” righteousness.  My faith and confidence was partly in Christ and partly in keeping the Church law and in living a good life, not “solely” in the finished work of the Savior on the cross.  Nowhere in the Bible did it teach me to go to Mass or any church in order to have eternal life.  It declared the opposite, “Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us.”  Salvation and eternal life are God’s gift.  “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.”  Listen, once I could boast in my supposed good works.  I had had great pride in my faith.  However, having a strong faith in any religion will send a person to hell.  Only faith in Jesus Christ will save a person.


My Day of Salvation


This Christian couple witnessed to me out of the Scriptures, but I quoted to them a memorized catechism statement.  The words of the catechism, however, could not match the Word of God.  Verse after verse revealed that my religion and faith were not based on the Bible.  This totally stripped my faith in my Church.  I had always believed my Church was biblically based, now I saw that this was not so.  The choice was clear, either my salvation was in my religion, or my salvation rested on Christ and His sacrifice on the cross.  It could not be both.  I went home to a lonely house and that night lay in bed looking up at the ceiling.  I truly examined myself, realizing I had never in my life had a time where I put “all” my faith and trust in Jesus Christ alone.  My confidence was always in my good works and the sacraments of the Roman Catholic Church.  I especially had confidence in Holy Communion and in keeping the Commandments.  I had hoped to persevere with enough grace at my death to obtain heaven.  But there before my eyes were the words of the Lord, “…  ‘Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.’  ‘Verily, verily, I say unto thee, except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God.’”


At that time, four verses stood out in my mind.  I had been shown them in the Scriptures, “Moreover, brethren, I declare unto you the gospel which I preached unto you, which also ye have received, and wherein ye stand; By which also ye are saved, if ye keep in memory what I preached unto you, unless ye have believed in vain.  For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures; And that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures.”  Christ had died for my sins.  All my sins!  The heart of the Gospel is contained in these five words, Christ died for my sins!  I was always worried about having them confessed.  Another verse that stood out in my mind from the Scriptures was one of the most quoted verses in the Bible.  “For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.”  “Whosoever shall call,” did that mean even me?  In the privacy of my bedroom, between God and myself, I called upon the Lord Jesus Christ believing that He would save me.  Why?  Because I had His Word on it, not religion’s word or man's word, but God’s Holy Word.  January 22, 1981 was the day I received the salvation God had provided me.  God saved me!  “We then, as workers together with him, beseech you also that ye receive not the grace of God in vain.  (For he saith, I have heard thee in a time accepted, and in the day of salvation have I succoured thee: behold, now is the accepted time; behold, now is the day of salvation.)”  Nothing did I do but put my faith in what He had done for me.  I trusted Christ’s sacrifice as payment for my sins.  The Bible teaches there is a day of birth, a day of death, and a day of salvation.  Remember the eternal commandment, “Ye must be born again.”  When was your day of salvation?  


Seek the Lord and His Peace


The Bible says, “…the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”  I now have that peace.  “Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”  All things are new, now!  This is my heart’s desire for you!  Why would I take the time to put this in writing?  Many of you have a love and zeal for God like I did, but unknowingly, not according to Bible knowledge.  “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God…and the Word became flesh.”  Put your faith in the Word, i.e., the Lord Jesus Christ, and not in the word of any man.  “…it pleased God by the foolishness of preaching to save them that believe.” “Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house.”  “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.  In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”  Ask God for the truth!  His Word is His promise!  That is why His Word, Christ Jesus, became flesh!


When a man desires truth, seeks God for answers, and is willing to forsake all, God will lead him into His truth.  The Lord said in the Scriptures, “If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.”  This was my plea.  I asked God and He answered my search.  A man can “know” that he has eternal life while living on this side of eternity.  The Lord’s word in Scripture says, “These things have I written unto you that believe on the name of the Son of God; that ye may know that ye have eternal life, and that ye may believe on the name of the Son of God.”45 I had never known with confidence I could have eternal life.  Now, I know.  A personal testimony will be required of all men at the Judgment Seat of Christ.  Christ Jesus Himself is my surety!  My eternal destiny hangs on my faith in Christ’s perfect sacrifice…and only that has made me right with God.  Your eternal destiny likewise must rest secure, for “…it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment.”46


 


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[Source: https://thetruthaboutcatholicism.com/personal-testimonies/2015/7/13/a-j-krause-from-darkness-to-light]

Joe Mizzi - The Weight of Responsibility to Accountability in Christ

 


July 13, 2015


I was born in 1966 on the tiny island of Malta, in the middle of the Mediterranean.  My dear parents were hard-working people.  Although my father was employed full-time, his salary was not sufficient to support the family, so he also worked as a farmer.  My mother not only took care of the house and the family, but during her rest, she knitted woolen cardigans to earn some extra money.  They cared for six children.  There were my two brothers, three sisters, and me.


My parents were God-fearing people, and they made sure to teach all of us the Catholic faith.  Apart from the daily religious instruction at school, they also sent me to catechism after school hours in preparation for the communion.  When I was older, I went to classes for the sacrament of Confirmation.  Attendance to Mass on Sunday was obligatory; my mother encouraged us by word and example to attend church daily.  Every evening, my father used to gather all the family for the recitation of the rosary.


 


Proud to be Catholic


As a young teenager, I was a proud member of the Catholic Church—believing it to be the one true church of the Lord Jesus Christ.  I did not know much about other religions, but the priests at the bishop’s seminary where I studied told us that Greek Orthodox and Protestant churches were breakaway bodies guilty of serious sin due to separating from the Catholic Church. 


We were taught about the Lord Jesus and His death on the cross.  However, it was emphasized that we had to make our own contribution to our salvation.  Doing good works and living a moral and religious life were necessary to increase personal righteousness and keeping us on the way to heaven, and finally gaining eternal life.  Of special importance were attending Mass and participating in the Eucharist for spiritual nourishment and freeing us from our daily faults.  Failure to attend Mass on Sunday would be a grave sin that if left unconfessed would send me to hell—forever.


Confession was an intricate part of my life.  I confessed my sins to a priest after which he would prescribe some works of penance to make satisfaction for my sins.  Usually the penance would consist of saying the Lord’s Prayer and Ave Maria[1] for a definite number of times.  I was left in no doubt that my heart remained stained with sin until I performed penance.  I did not recite those prayers because of my personal faith in God but as a “form of punishment.”


The feast of our Lady of Sorrows is a very special occasion in my country.  Solemn processions are organized in many towns and villages, which are attended by a good portion of the population.  Our family was no exception.  It was a day of fasting, and in the evening we would join the penitential procession saying the rosary and other prayers while we walked behind the statue of Our Lady.  We were happy to be doing something—fasting and praying—to cancel our sins.  We performed those religious works to make ourselves fit for heaven, for we knew that we were not yet good enough.  As a Catholic, I did not rest my salvation in the hands of Jesus, rather, I was striving to to merit, or earn, eternal life by obeying the commandments, participating in the sacraments, praying, and fasting.  Just one mortal sin at the end and I would lose all my merits and my soul.  So, although we saw salvation as somehow related to Jesus and His cross, it was equally clear that the crucial factor that determined where I would spend eternity was my own personal contribution of good deeds.  I had a definite part to play to achieve forgiveness and to be accepted by God.


 


Weight of Responsibility


At home, at church, and on street corners there were images and statues depicting “souls” in the flames of purgatory.  They were a constant reminder that we needed to do more and more good works to prepare ourselves before we died.  The mind of a young boy would remain impressed by the scene of men, women, and children in the agony of fire.  The horror of that picture can only be surpassed by the Roman Catholic doctrine of purgatory itself.  The faithful must pay a debt of punishment by penance and good works on earth, and failing to do so, they must finish paying the debt of their sin by personal suffering and torment in purgatory, or worse, the eternal fire of hell.


Looking back, I can see what a heavy burden my parents felt as they strove to rescue all their children from the torments of purgatory.  They too feared the possibility and consequences of failure.  I felt very troubled and concerned.  I took seriously my duty to say prayers, confess sins, do penance, and perform good works to decrease the torment awaiting me after death, and to keep my soul on the path to heaven and ultimate happiness.


 


 


A Strange Question


 


When I was 14, my brother came home one day and asked me a very strange question: “Do you realize that we are saved by faith in Christ, and not by our good works?”  His statement shocked me.  He was denying the faith that we cherished so much.  At that time, I did not know that the religious conversation that followed would mark the beginning of a dramatic change in my life.  I could not believe that such a tragedy as this had happened to our family, and I was determined to convince him of his error and bring him back to the Catholic Church.  I knew that I had to study the Bible for myself in order to disarm my brother and prove that the doctrines of the Catholic Church are found in the Bible.  And study I did!  I read the Catholic Bible, both in English and Maltese.  I also asked questions to my religious instruction teacher so that I would be better prepared.


 


The Bible Reaches My Heart


The reading of the Bible had an unexpected and unforeseen effect.  Initially, I used the Bible merely as an argumentative tool.  Gradually, however, the words of Scripture began to penetrate the very depths of my soul.  Because my brother always seemed to be able to quote Scripture to prove his point, I was determined that I would do the same.  However, as I read the Bible, there was a gradual shift in my concern.  I was no longer merely interested in a religious argument, but I had a pressing concern about my personal salvation and relationship with the Lord.


The Sermon on the Mount particularly impressed me, and I determined to make it the standard of my life.  I tried to follow the teaching of the Lord; I thought that this would gain me much merit.  Yet, the harder I tried, the more evident it became that I could never reach the high moral and spiritual standard demanded by Christ.  His standards were beyond my reach.  An overwhelming sense of frustration and defeat forced me to reconsider my religious beliefs about good works.  How could I be as perfect as our heavenly Father is perfect—as Jesus demands?  I would have to attain this standard if I wanted to reach Heaven.  I began to see that I was failing miserably to be right with God by my own obedience and goodness.


 


 


What the Bible Actually Says


 


When I discovered what the apostle Paul had to say about this matter, it was as if he were speaking directly to me:


“For by grace are ye saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest any man should boast … Therefore by the deeds of the law there shall no flesh be justified in his sight: for by the law is the knowledge of sin…  Wherefore the law was our schoolmaster to bring us unto Christ, that we might be justified by faith.”[2]


I must have read these passages a hundred times.  Why does the apostle Paul say that works do not save us?  As a Catholic, I believed that I was supposed to do good works in order to merit eternal life, and I was trying to be right with God by obeying His law.  Instead, the law was revealing my failures and weaknesses.  God was breaking my pride and preparing me to believe in Jesus. 


 


Christ, the Sin-bearer


As a Roman Catholic, I knew that salvation had to do with the sacrifice of Christ on the cross.  We used to repeat this prayer, especially during Lent, “We adore You, O Christ, and we praise You.  Because by Your Holy Cross, You have redeemed the world.”  We were taught that Jesus opened the gate of heaven that had been closed by Adam’s sin, and that now it was up to us to enter that open door by doing good and participating in the sacraments.  With further reading of the Bible, I discovered that the Lord Jesus accomplished something much greater than that.  It says:


“Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed…  For Christ also hath once suffered for sins, the just for the unjust, that he might bring us to God.”[3]


 


           Joseph Mizzi, M.D.


 


 


The work of Jesus was much, much greater than opening the door of heaven for hard working Catholics.  The Bible was saying that Jesus paid the debt for all my sins.  Instead of me working all my life and doing penance and good works to pay for my sins, Jesus did this for me. 


 


He bore my sins on the cross.  How different this was to what I had been taught to believe.  The punishment for sin is not repeating a few prayers or suffering in the fires of purgatory.  The penalty for sin is death; yet, Jesus died in the place of sinners.  The Lord Jesus did not just make salvation possible by opening the door of Heaven.  No, on the cross Jesus became the substitute for sinners by dying in their place.  Therefore, we cannot possibly make satisfaction for our sin or merit eternal life by anything we do; rather, we must entrust our salvation into the hands of the Lord Jesus Christ.  He is able to save completely; His blood cleanses from all sin. 


 


His Work, or Mine?


God brought me to this crossroad.  On one hand, I could continue to live according to the religion that promised me eternal life on the merits of my works.  On the other hand, I could abandon that teaching and completely trust in the Lord Jesus Christ alone for my salvation.  I was alone at home one evening when I knelt down and prayed.  I acknowledged my sin and guilt.  I admitted that I could not pay my debt by doing good, and I asked God to receive me for the sake of Jesus Christ His Son.  He did. The joy in my heart was unspeakable!


God illustrated to me the wonderful truth of Jesus’ substitutionary death on my fifteenth birthday.  I was supposed to be helping my father in the fields.  Instead, I was driving the tractor up and down a busy road without my father’s permission and without a driving license.  I was involved in a traffic accident, causing hundreds of dollars worth of damages to the brand new van involved in the collision.  It was entirely my fault.  My father was not guilty.  Yet, my father paid all the damages for me.  I did not pay a single penny.  I will always be grateful for my father’s goodness.  That is exactly what the Son of God did on my behalf.  He died for me, freed me from sin that I may live for Him who loves me with such amazing love.


 


Joe Mizzi is the founder and director of Just for Catholics on the Internet.


http://www.justforcatholics.org/index.htm


 


 


 


 


[1] A Catholic prayer addressed to Mary


[2] Ephesians 2:8, 9; Romans 3:20 and Galatians 3:24


[3] 1Peter 2:24; 3:18



[Source: https://thetruthaboutcatholicism.com/personal-testimonies/2015/7/13/joe-mizzi-the-weight-of-responsibility-to-accountability-in-christ]

 

John (Paul Patrick) Kuspa Of Polish Origin Born again by Grace alone

December 3, 2015

Born Polish; i.e., Born Catholic


I was raised the fifth of eight children (seven boys) of Polish-American parents in inner-city Detroit, Michigan, USA.  I was born into a Roman Catholic heritage of many generations.  My father had actually attended a Roman Catholic seminary for more than a year, pursuing a priestly vocation, before meeting and eventually deciding to marry my mother instead.  I was blessed with academic skills and an interest in achieving and doing my best in whatever task was at hand.  I attended Catholic elementary schools until the seventh grade at historic churches built by Polish immigrants who settled in Detroit from the late 1880s onward.  I served as an altar boy under the Latin Rite for a year (and would have served longer had we not had to move around a bit, as explained next).


Our lives changed dramatically in late 1956.  Over many years my father had become an alcoholic, and was increasingly abusive to my mother.  My older brother, Fred (just turned 18 at the time), brought us out of that distressed home, and we never returned to live with our father.  My mother, and the remaining older brothers, helped to raise the rest of us in Southgate, Michigan, a suburb of Detroit.  We attended St. Pius X Church, and I regularly and gladly participated in CCD classes for 6 years, right through high school.


I thrived in academics, enjoyed sports, and was athletic enough to compete for an appointment to the United States Military Academy (USMA) at West Point, NY.  A boyhood dream come true, I did attend there and did quite well in that structured environment.  (A decade later I went back there to teach for three years.)  As a Cadet, I attended mass and other services regularly, participated in the Cardinal Newman Forum, and sang in the Catholic Choir.


In summary, I was a practicing Catholic for 25 years: through college and in my early military career, which included a year in South Vietnam.  One common theme in my youth was the comfort that I found in tradition and rules – whether for academic success, personal behavior, family stability, spiritual comfort, or achievement in life.  The Roman religious system laid out clearly what I had to do to become acceptable to God and how to stay in His good graces.  It was possible to know what I was expected to DO spiritually what it took to get to Heaven.  I thought about that a lot, and wanted to be acceptable to Him.  I did not know then that the Apostle Paul taught clearly, “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.”[1]   


My Timeless Church was Changing – a Lot!


The Roman Catholic Church convened a historic gathering of Church leadership from 1962 to 1965, known as Vatican Council II, to modernize and update the Church in light of the many developments in the modern world.  But the changes of “Vatican II” continued to evolve, especially in the United States.  By 1970 they cumulatively became so disorienting to me that I believed my Church had left me!  The rules and practices were so different, many of which I had found useful and comforting, and I wondered what else might change in the future.


 


My wife (and high school sweetheart) Linda had been raised in a Christian denomination.  When we got married in 1967, it was a brief, “mixed-marriage” ceremony at my home Catholic Church, St. Pius X.  My mother did not attend because Linda was not Catholic (not an uncommon response in that era).  Nevertheless, my Aunt Lucille arranged for us to get a Papal blessing from Pope Paul VI for our marriage (shown here).


As a married couple, we attended masses each Sunday and all Holy Days of Obligation wherever we lived.  After I returned from serving in South Vietnam in 1970, Linda began taking classes to become a Catholic, so that we could be one in our worship.  However, within several months we stopped attending our local Catholic parish, out of my cumulative frustration with the on-going liturgical changes, and a long-simmering dissatisfaction with “My Church” over five years. 


Dropping Out of “the Only True Church” – Where Else Could We Go?


We just dropped out of regular church attendance for about ten years.  We never considered going elsewhere for regular Sunday services.  My religious upbringing taught me that the Roman church was “the only true church,” founded by Christ Himself on St. Peter!  So where else was there to go?  Most holidays we did attend church services on Christmas and Easter as a part of our family observances, at whichever Catholic or Christian church was convenient. 


Meanwhile, I channeled my zeal into my career and educational attainment, and these effectively became my idols.  I earned graduate degrees in nuclear engineering (Masters & Ph.D), civil engineering (Masters), and a Masters of Business Administration.  Career highlights during a 26-year career in the U.S. Army include:  serving on a nuclear weapon design team at Lawrence Livermore Laboratory, teaching Cadets as an Assistant Professor in Mechanics at West Point, commanding a 900-man engineer battalion in Germany, negotiating nuclear test inspection protocols with the Russians, serving in the Pentagon on the Joint Staff on NATO nuclear policy matters, and finishing as a Colonel within the Army Secretariat.  Such career pursuits had become my selfish goals for my benefit, and also “for my family.”  In short, I had become my own “god,” not giving spiritual matters or my eternal destiny much thought.  Although our material comfort and lifestyle was quite “satisfying,” Linda and our two young daughters suffered for it spiritually.


My Faith Was Not Based on the Bible


Before continuing my story, it is important to note at this point that I did become a ‘lapsed Catholic’ due to objections with Rome’s theology, because I had no idea they were not true and not based on the Bible.  In retrospect, I do not even recall our family having a Bible!  As children we each had our Baltimore Catechism, St. Joseph’s Missal (containing the standard Catholic prayers:  Mass, confession, the Church calendar of saints’ days and feasts, etc.), rosaries, Mass cards, scapulars, and saints’ medals.  Only much later did I find almost all of these practices were contrary to the Bible.


Furthermore, no true Christian in my circle of friends and colleagues ever explained to me (confronted me?) with biblical truths that are contrary to Catholic teachings.  I would not have responded well, until God gave me the grace to hear and understand, but no one even tried.  I now understand that they could have used any of the following fundamental differences between official Roman Catholic teachings and what the Bible teaches.  If you are a Roman Catholic, active or passive, please check out these matters in the Bible for yourself.  Why not?


·      Rome calls the Sacrifice of the Mass a real sacrifice (or a “re-presentation” of Christ’s sacrifice) – for the remission of sins in either case – in spite of the very clear teaching of the book of Hebrews such as:  “But this man, after he had offered one sacrifice for sins for ever, sat down on the right hand of God; From henceforth expecting till his enemies be made his footstool. For by one offering he hath perfected for ever them that are sanctified.”[2]  (Hebrews chapters 7, 9, & 10 clearly teach that this sacrifice was all-sufficient, hence a one-time divine work!)  Conclusion:  There is no need for the Mass, at all!  In fact, it is blasphemous to contend that Christ’s sacrifice was not sufficient, and that we can and must do more! 


·      The same grievous error applies to the “penance” we supposedly must do and the indulgences we can earn to complete payment for the penalty for my sins.  No!  Jesus on the cross said, “It is finished,”[3] which in Greek is Tetelestai, or “paid in full,” meaning the debt to the Father due for our sins was paid for by His Son, in full.  Period.  Conclusion: These false teachings lead Catholics to follow a very different Jesus from the biblical Jesus:  the One who is necessary for salvation but not fully sufficient!


·      Christ is said to be bodily present in the wafer of the Eucharist during each Mass, which wafer is therefore worthy of worship!  From childhood we were taught to fast from food from midnight until taking the wafer or “Host” of Communion at Mass the next morning, out of reverence for “God,” and a solemn reminder of what “It” represented.  We knelt and bowed at the presentation of the consecrated “Host” presented by the priest during the Mass.  Of course, I had no idea that there was no hint of such practices in the New Testament Church, or in the Scriptures.  Luke, in the book of Acts, did teach with these words from the angels at Jesus’ ascension into Heaven, that Christ would return physically, but only once at the end of the age:  “This same Jesus, who was taken up from you into heaven, will so come in like manner as you saw him go into heaven.”[4]  No hint in this verse that Christ also will return daily on every altar where ‘Mass’ is performed.  Conclusion:  The wafer of Catholicism cannot be the same Jesus returning to us “in like manner.”  Furthermore, contrary to the second commandment,[5] which Catholicism blends into their version of the first commandment,[6] I now understand the worship of a wafer of bread, as “God,” is idolatry!


·      The birth-to-death sacramental system of Catholicism suited me quite well.  The concept of being able to earn more saving grace through the sacraments and other rituals made “worldly” sense.  All worthy attainments, whether they be professional, military, or academic, are merit-based, aren’t they?  So why not I follow a merit system to “get in God’s good graces” and stay there through my moral efforts and obedience to “His Church”?  But I learned much later that the Bible teaches the opposite, that grace that is earned is no grace at all!  The Apostle Paul taught this in many ways, for example, “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.”[7]  Also consider:  “Now to him that worketh is the reward not reckoned of grace, but of debt.5  But to him that worketh not, but believeth on him that justifieth the ungodly, his faith is counted for righteousness.”[8]  Conclusion:  We cannot earn God’s grace.  We need not “do” any more than to believe that Christ, God Himself, has already done everything for our salvation, as the perfect sacrifice!  Further, even having such belief, or faith, is a gift of God’s grace, and is not self-generated.  How dare I think I can add to what Christ did at Calvary to merit my salvation!


·      The significant divine roles attributed to Mary and reverence for her are pervasive in Catholicism, but even more so in certain groups, such as the Polish people.  In our home, the role of Mary was far more prominent than Jesus, since she was “Our Mother.”  Mary, supposedly, is more accessible to us, and Jesus has to listen to the requests of His Mother!  In truth, the New Testament has no hint of this elevation of any creature.  In fact, the New Testament records only a handful of direct references to Jesus with His mother,[9] and there is only one minor mention of Mary in the entire Book of Acts,[10] the earliest record of the church!  Each of Jesus’ conversations with or about His mother seems to be dismissive in tone, but not to the point of sin.  Only later did I understand – through Scripture such as “I will not give My glory to another”[11] – that God would never elevate Mary or any other servant in the way that Rome has done.  What blasphemy!  Conclusion:  Catholicism falsely teaches that Mary shares in God’s glory, and in fact serves as co-redeemer, dispenser of all graces, source of all holiness, Queen of Heaven, and many other divine roles, which cannot be! 


·      How did Rome’s teachings and traditions get so far off track?  The authority of the Pope and Bishops and the Traditions of the Church are based on the supposed “Apostolic Succession” and consistency of their teaching from the time of St. Peter.  When I was brought to saving faith much later, I was quite dismayed to learn how non-historical these claims were.  Unlike the Catholic popes, Peter himself does not claim a higher position than being a fellow elder:  “The elders which are among you I exhort, who am also an elder, and a witness of the sufferings of Christ, and also a partaker of the glory that shall be revealed… Neither as being lords over God's heritage, but being examples to the flock.”[12]  Conclusion:  Although there is much more to debunk about claims the papacy makes for its supremacy and power, Rome’s claim of Peter, and His successors, as being the head of the church is not claimed by Peter himself.  Nothing in the early church history in the book of Acts supports Rome’s claims that the apostles had successors:  bishops who controlled all churches in a particular city or region, and certainly not the subsequent development of a central church authority over all the world’s churches. 


In short, I grew up without the Bible, except for short selections read during the Mass and other religious observances.  Only much later – by God’s sovereign grace – was I given ‘eyes to see’ and ‘ears to hear’ what the Bible really taught, after studying the Bible for myself in my late 40s.


My “Churchianity” Phase  


In 1980, we started going to church again regularly, for the wholesome upbringing of our daughters, now ages nine and seven, at the Christian military chapels or churches in the communities where we lived.  We never joined a church, since I still considered myself Catholic, albeit one in self-imposed “exile.”  As I look back on that period, I consider it my “Churchianity” phase; i.e., going to church as a good thing to do on Sundays, and that lasted twelve years.  At church we met weekly or more often with very nice people and made many good friends, and the youth programs were very beneficial and safe for our daughters.  But we never really thought much about our eternal destiny, nor did we hear the true gospel of Jesus Christ.  In hindsight, we were mostly in what I now recognize are spiritually dead, mainline Christian church services, which taught at best a social gospel.  Implicitly, salvation came through helping the sick, the poor, and homeless and thereby becoming acceptable and pleasing to God.  It was a bloodless gospel, offering salvation through good works and self-generated moral effort, not the work of Christ at the cross.


Born from Above


My spiritual life took a radical turn on October 25, 1992.  The issue of abortion was on the ballot for the upcoming election in Maryland.  As is common in many mainline Christian churches, there is acceptance of abortion as a woman’s “right to choose.”  At the start of this particular Sunday service, pamphlets arguing for and against abortion were announced as “available in the back.”  Having been brought up in a poor family with many children, some of whom doubtless were not “convenient,” our family had benefitted from solid Roman Catholic teaching in support of the weakest among us, especially the unborn.  Therefore, abortion was unthinkable as something acceptable to God.  I understand now that God had been preparing me for this moment over several years.  I had become increasingly disturbed about the grave national sin of abortion.  For a decade or more I had subscribed to very traditional Roman Catholic sources, who also lamented that within the American Church there were many leaders, even bishops, who overtly supported a “woman’s right to choose” an abortion, clearly against the teachings of the church in Rome.  Now having this abhorrent practice tacitly endorsed by my present church, although not surprising, was starkly confronting me. 


I clearly believed something internal was prompting me to action, such that I knew I had to say something publically and forcefully against abortion at that service, and that this would be my last time in that church after eight years.  I spent the rest of that service composing my thoughts, sensing divine assistance and boldness.  At the end of that service I asked the pastor for two minutes, which was readily granted due to our long-standing service involvement in his church. 

I spoke clearly about the evil of abortion, the need to understand what was being “chosen,” and concluded by stating that we could no longer be part of that church.  As one can imagine, the silence in that assembly was palpable as we left, never to return.  Only a few members contacted us afterward to clarify why we were leaving, but no one else left over this issue.


That day I was changed profoundly.  Over time I began to understand that it had been the Holy Spirit who had prompted me to speak, gave me the words to speak, and enabled me to speak out boldly.  I was transformed in the process of following the firm prompting of the Holy Spirit.  How so?  Within days my interests focused exclusively on the spiritual versus the secular!  It was a wonderful awakening of my spirit.  It was as if I now was tuned to the right frequency on a radio, and could now hear the Spirit’s words clearly.  I could not explain it, but I loved it!  A few examples:  I discovered a local radio station that had recently changed from rock music to a Christian format, and I could not get enough of its hour by hour biblical teaching.  My daily reading during the hour-long commute to and from the Pentagon was now Christian books and articles, replacing completely the current news and political articles I had preferred to read.  However, I still had to learn what a hopeless sinner I had been, before God’s grace made me a new creation.  More on that later.


Transitioning to the Gospel of Grace, but the Tentacles of Catholicism Run Deep!


Regarding church attendance, I knew the answer this time was not to stay away from church.  In fact, I even considered it was possible that I was being called back to the Roman Catholic Church, under the more traditional rites of my youth!  I attended two services each Sunday morning for the next 5 or 6 weeks, including attendance at several Roman Catholic masses!  We quickly settled in a local Southern Baptist Church and attended Bible classes and their services on Sunday morning, Sunday evenings, Wednesday night activities, many special events, and soon began participating in small home study and prayer groups.  Within two months, I came forward at the “altar call” at the end of the Sunday morning service to profess my new faith and join the church as a member.  The pastor asked whether that included baptism.  I declined, since I had been baptized as an infant, and I did not want to discredit what my parents had done in good faith.  Recall, at this early stage of new life in Christ, I had no theological objections to Roman Catholicism’s understanding of baptism as a sacrament that imparts sanctifying grace to the soul, which of course no work of man can do.  Six months later, as adult believers, my wife and I both were baptized by immersion.  We had come to understand that baptism was done in obedience to New Testament teaching, and testified to the new birth that we both had been granted.  We could not be baptized in order to appropriate or induce that new birth, as Catholicism teaches.  Discipleship based on the study of the Word of God was bearing palpable fruit.


Remarkably, in retrospect, during those first six months I also considered a return to Catholicism with some intentionality.  Recall that I believed that the Church itself had left its own moorings and was adrift in the 1960’s and 70’s.  Many priests, nuns, and other devout Catholics believed the same thing, and they left in droves during that time.  The conservative Catholic publications I was reading lamented the ‘liberal’ (worldly) influences on social issues, the continuing trend away from orthodox Roman Catholicism, and open defiance of Papal authority.  These conservative elements were working to restore some of the old ways, including the Latin Rite of the Mass, which I missed.  At age 47, I still believed the religious teachings and practices of my youth; I just could not find them anywhere taught in the Bible!  I really yearned for a restoration of the familiar liturgy and other traditional observances.  I was intrigued to discovered there was a remnant in the United States that also longed for the restoration of the “Holy Mother the Church” of my youth. 


Therefore, four months into my new life in Christ, I explored whether my new calling after my military career was to teach at a new “priory” under the Latin Rite, a high school being started in the fall of 1993 to teach young Catholic boys who would explore whether they had a vocation to the priesthood.  Since I had had some desire to teach high school, and I longed for the reinstatement of the old Latin Mass, this opportunity seemed like the perfect fit, and perhaps was the Lord’s purpose for my recent spiritual transformation.  Again, implicitly I still believed Roman Catholicism to be true, even while I was now fully involved in my Baptist church and thriving on the fresh study of the Word of God.  Accordingly, I spent a week helping with other volunteers to restore an old convent, which that year was to become St. Gregory’s Academy in Elmhurst, Pennsylvania, near Scranton, Pennsylvania.  By God’s grace, during one of the Latin masses that ended each workday for the crew, the Lord made it very clear to me that this was not the path I should be following. 


In retrospect, I am grateful that the Lord allowed me to pursue this course to return to Catholicism, as part of my fresh zeal for God and the intentionality that marked my new life in the Spirit.  This episode should demonstrate to Catholics that I did not have a personal animus against my former Church.  Rather, I was open to returning, until the Holy Spirit clearly closed that door.  St. Gregory’s Academy did open in 1993, functioned for decade or more, but is now closed.


Blessed Assurance?  Really?  So “Holy Mother the Church” Taught Error? 


My biblical learning thereafter was steady and purposeful.  It took four years until I understood the Bible teaches I could have assurance of salvation.  That shows how much unlearning I had to do about the Roman Catholic sacramental system that I missed so much.  In Romanism you can never be sure of a heavenly destiny.  If you are sure, that is the sin of presuming on God’s grace.  Such presumption is a mortal sin that – unless and until confessed by you and absolved by a priest – removes the sanctifying grace needed to gain Heaven, or even get to Purgatory.  For example, even if a pope or a Mother Theresa were to be sure of their gaining Heaven through their good lives, they would be disqualified under Romanism even for Purgatory en route to Heaven, unless they confessed and were absolved of their mortal sins of presumption, before they died.  This realization of assurance of my eternal destiny was wonderful, even if very hard to fathom.  But now, for the first time, I had to confront the fact that teachings of my former religion contradicted the Bible.  I had not given Catholic doctrines much thought in the 26 years since I had left that Church, with the last four of those years as a new believer learning the Bible.  The dark question quickly arose in my mind, “What could be the source of this erroneous teaching?” and I did not want to “go there.”  For six more years I succeeded in avoiding thinking about whether the Roman Catholic teaching I grew up with could be false, but I did sense that I would have to deal with that down the road.  I just continued to grow in the Word, witness, and enjoy my new life in Christ. 


Unfinished Business – Facing My Own Sinfulness


The Lord had some unfinished business in my understanding my conversion, and He humbled me profoundly at the seven-year mark.  You may have noticed that the Spirit entered my life through an unusual way, after my obedience to His prompting to speak out in faith to rebuke my church for supporting abortion.  I cannot explain it, nor did I try to.  But God sovereignly knew He would show me my utter depravity, and my total dependence on His grace, being nothing that I could ever merit.  He showed me, through a very humbling spiritual depression, lasting seven months, that the saying “but for the grace of God,” I was a hopelessly lost sinner, actually applied to me! 


The Holy Spirit led me to understand that the parable Jesus taught about the Pharisee and the tax collector (Luke 16:9-15) applied to me, and I was the Pharisee!  I needed to learn that I was just like the tax collector; the Lord granted me the humility to acknowledge my hopeless state!  It was a very hard, but certainly a very necessary lesson for me (unfinished business, if you will) from my conversion seven years earlier.  God had graciously given me the faith to believe the true gospel of Jesus Christ, and He saved me for His purposes and His glory, and through nothing I deserved or could ever merit.  Hallelujah!  And now what was that work that He had prepared for me?


Confronting the Errors of Catholicism


In the tenth year since my rebirth, a missionary came to our local Bible church, having spent six years in Siberia!  Mike had been converted in his early 20s during his time at a Catholic seminary studying to be a priest.  His “coming out verse” was 1 John 5:13:  “These things I have written to you who believe in the name of the Son of God, so that you may know that you have eternal life.”  Present tense: sure knowledge of eternal life!  Wow!  Mike went back to his seminary and several brethren were converted through his witness, and, of course, they were asked to leave.


I had puzzled a lot over whether a Catholic who became a born-again believer could stay in that false church.  With Mike’s story, I saw afresh the blessed assurance that Catholics cannot have, and when they learn they can have that assurance (based on Christ’s finished work at the cross) they cannot stay as a Catholic!  I now understand that the Holy Spirit will cause them to move out, in His timing.  I have since encountered many such testimonies of former Catholics who tried to stay but could not, and were obedient to the New Testament admonition to depart from false teaching. 


When we met in 2001, Mike had for thirty years been teaching about the errors of Roman Catholicism.  I helped him teach his seminar on Catholic doctrine at my church later that year.  I realized that I could no longer avoid the issue that Romanism opposes biblical Christianity on so many points.  I knew then that I was called to teach and to witness accordingly. 


My Dear Wife Goes Home to Her Lord (2009)


My belief in blessed assurance faced a most important test when my bride, Linda, of almost 42 years, was losing her four-year battle with breast cancer.  She had made a re-dedication of her life to Christ as I was coming to Christ, and as noted before, we both were baptized by immersion as adults.  Her breast cancer had been in remission for over 15 years, but came back as stage IV in 2005.  After more than three years of chemotherapy and other treatments, it became clear that she would not survive this time.  Facing a remedial operation late in the process, we decided we did not want resuscitation or other extra measures if her survival prospects were not good.  The Holy Spirit gave us both that peace that passes all understanding.  After ten days of home hospice, she passed peacefully into the arms of Her Lord, with close family around. 


Linda and I had often remarked that we could not comprehend how non-believers could face eternity without Christ.  This is especially sad and tragic for Roman Catholics, and others, who are depending on their religious rituals to continue being good enough for God to consider them holy enough for Heaven.  They can never have the assurance that the Bible clearly teaches, again as exemplified by 1 John 5:13:  “These things I have written to you who believe in the name of the Son of God, so that you may know that you have eternal life.”  We are born-again, from above, per John 1:13 – “who were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.”  [Please note that this verse has brought numerous Catholics to saving faith!]


Since Linda’s promotion to glory, God has blessed me with another godly woman, Maija, who became my wife in 2011.  She was saved out of the occult in 1979, and her testimony complements my understanding of the dangers of false teaching, and the sovereign grace of God in the lives of all believers.  We both are unworthy, yet eternally grateful examples of Jesus’ promise in John 10:27-29 – “My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me. And I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; neither shall anyone snatch them out of My hand. My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of My Father’s hand.”


Completing the Race Set Before Me


In summary, for ten years as a believer I was reluctant to deal with the truth that Romanism teaches a different gospel.  I had to travel a long path to discover point by point the errors that I could not see from within the Church.  I did not have any objections against the Roman Church when I left, nor did I for many years thereafter.  Hopefully, I can empathize with those who are still in Romanism and blinded from the truth of the Word of God regarding salvation and so much more.  Furthermore, in recent years, I have been dismayed to learn that many evangelical Bible believers and leaders – most of whom have never been under that false system – do not know the fatal differences between biblical Christianity and Romanism.  They do not know whether or not there is a need to witness for Christ to Catholics, and if so how to do this.  Therefore, they are not equipping their flocks to do so.  Doubtless many are also influenced by the reasonableness of Rome’s ecumenical arguments for all “Christians” to work together, “in unity,” especially to withstand the secular tide against families, babies, and long-standing cultural morality.  The blurring of the gospel message to promote greater “unity” is an intentional strategy of Rome in its outreach to other “Christian” and non-Christian faith communities.


Now in retirement from my secular career, my focus is to try to address the lack of knowledge of believers and have them understand that Rome teaches a very different gospel than the gospel of grace in the Bible.  There is a great need for more workers among the harvest field of Roman Catholics, all of whom need to hear the true gospel of Jesus Christ.  To whom much is given much is expected.  I have been delivered by His grace from the bondage of working my way to Heaven.  I now accept His free and perfect gift of salvation, and I desire that for all those caught up in my former religion.  To God be the Glory, Great Things He has Done!


If you would like to contact me, I would love to hear from you. My email address is: john.kuspa@verizon.net  Thank you.


 


 


[1] Ephesians 2:8-9; Romans 4:1-4


[2] Hebrews 10:12-14


[3] John 19:30


[4] Acts 1:9-11


[5] Exodus 20:4-6; Deuteronomy 5:8-10


[6] Catechism of the Catholic Church, para. 2083 and following


[7] Ephesians 2:8-9


[8] Romans 4:3-4


[9] Luke 2:48-52; John 2:1-5, 10; Matthew 12:46-50 (in parallel with Mark 3:31-35 and Luke 8:19-21); Matthew 13:53, 58; John 19:25-27


[10] Acts 1:14


[11] Isaiah 48:11


[12] 1 Peter 5:1, 3


[Source: https://thetruthaboutcatholicism.com/personal-testimonies/2015/12/3/of-polish-origin-born-again-by-grace-alone-john-paul-patrick-kuspa]